Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Allow me to re-introduce myself... well kind of...

I'm not exactly sure how to do this so I'm just going to roll with it. I will warn you right now, English is my second language so excuse my grammar! Well that's my excuse for it anyway.  I'm a 25 year old (mostly) stay at home mommy to an almost 10 month old baby boy named Brandon & a new wife to Mr. P! Before I had these amazing tittles to my life I was just Nathalia. Platinum blond hair, wild child, irresponsible student, the attention whore shaking her Brazilian bootay on top of the speakers wearing the smallest skirt possible (the less clothing the better)  at the club sipping beer out of a pitcher with a straw. My main goal in life was to be skinny, tanned, blond and party all the time of course. Very superficial... and typical.. I know! No,  I was never into drugs or anything too drastic. I did love to take those Brazilian diet pills which we call chupacabra that would help me to lose 10 lbs in a week any time I felt like I had to from too much Burger King. Being so vein was probably my main fault. Those pills were so toxic and contained so many ingredients for so many different health issues mixed together (that I had none of)  I never thought it could all turn on me until it did & began to suffer from extreme depression & and still suffer from major anxiety and OCD. Which leads me to the reason I decided to start this blog.

When I was returning home from our honeymoon I was having a really rough time in the plane. Of course August is hurricane season and we were going through a major thunderstorm. It didn't help that I HATE flying & was having the worst anxiety attack the whole flight! The hubby was going crazy with all the questions I would ask him about airplanes & storms, my sweaty hands and obviously my tossing and turning in the plane, so I decided while we were waiting for our next flight to depart I would get a book and try to relax before I drove myself and Mr.P nuts! I grabbed this book called "The Happiness Project" it's about a woman that has everything she wants and needs in her life and yet still struggles to be happy for as happy as she is... makes sense? I know not really but yes I bought it because someway or another I thought it related to me.The reason for this is I have everything I could ever imagine or dream of and yet I sit here and worry about the future all the time. Things that haven't happened, that probably wont happen, bad things ... I'm just a worrier. In other words I sit here and wait for God to punish me for all the wrong things I have done in my past even though I know God is good.

I know it doesn't make much sense now but I started this blog because in all honesty I have WAY too much time on my hands to think about the bad things that can ruin your happiness and sometimes for as much as people in your life love you , they don't understand you and one hour of therapy just isn't long enough!!! I want to share my feelings, my passion, my work, my life & fabulous findings and tips of course with who ever is out there. This blog is my diary of my happiness project and my way to concentrate on what matters life. Love, laughs & lipgloss of course.. My way to count my blessings & dream! Sometimes it's hard being young mother and wife and still feel like yourself and I know many women can relate. So sit back & relax I hope you guys can handle my insanity.. lol 

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