Dear Diary,

My whole life I have always counted every single pound, lost or gained. I can look back at pictures and tell you exactly how much I weighed at that moment. Recently I can safely say that I have been even more on top of things. I'm never without my scale and I probably weight myself way more than I should (at least 3x a day), it's like an obsession.

For the last year I have been beating myself up like crazy. Criticizing my body, comparing myself to others, Making fun of myself (which only opens the doors for others to do so too). I'm either on a complete health kick or I just don't give a fuck. What started out as "let me drop 3 lbs" is now weight gain of 9 lbs. Now I'm not saying that I'm overweight or fat. I'm barely 5'1 and 9 lbs  makes a difference on me but not enough for me to allow myself to think so negatively about my body and put myself down in front of others. I'm going to go ahead and play doctor and self diagnose with a slight body dysmorphia.

Which brings me to my next issue...Pinterest and Instragram sure hasn't helped and got me thinking...

I think all  the comparisons, negativity, high expectations,stupid jokes and stressing over it has been holding me back from my goals. I  have to stop being so hard on myself, criticizing and over thinking everything about my body. I have to do what works for me, what makes me happy and not what drives me insane or makes me obsessive.

I'm not those stick thin women and I will never be. I can also say with confidence I don't want to be them! I have my own body, my Brazilian curves which I happen to love and so does my husband. When I lost my baby weight Pinterest didnt exist. There was no secret 10 lb in 10 day diet. I used my own pictures as motivation. I ate in moderation, I exercised like a normal person. I never beat myself for indulging once in a while. Every time I had to get dressed to go somewhere I looked in the mirror and I was so proud of how far I had come. I never stressed and that was probably the real secret to my consistency.

My motivation board has been deleted...


BE YOUR OWN MOTIVATION LADIES

9 Months postpartum looking like a hot mama doing my Baywatch run! hahaha

The 3 F's

We're gearing up for the three major F's ...

Fall, Football & Fashion Week. 

If your anything like me football is one that does't excite me at all. One of the reasons being that it puts my husband out of commission on Sundays, Mondays and Thursdays and honestly that is just too much. Of course fantasy football just puts the cherry on top of it all.

But fall is by far my favorite season so I'm super excited for that...and Fashion week? Of course I have always followed it online and on E! News... lol but this year, thanks to an awesome friend I get to attend one of the fashion shows so I'm thrilled... no really... I'm jumping on the couch excited!

So let's focus on the task at hand. We must to stock up our closet with statement pieces that will easily update our wardrobe and make everything look FALL/WINTER 2013. Weather they are pieces to wear to girls night, a big event, fashion week or even to that football game. Because let's face it we must take time to participate at least once this season...for me it would the SUPERBOWL for OBVIOUS reasons ;)

Everything pointy!!! Tie up strappy pumps,metallic pumps (and of course metallic nails) super chic rocker boots are a must. Leopard will never go out of style, just make sure u choose one statement piece. Don't over do it. I love this simple clutch from gap and  it's so affordable. Statement necklaces are perfect to spice up any outfit. I chose a more simple on the tones yet still dramatic in size from J CREW and one with Emerald stones which is still one of the IT colors of this upcoming season. If your going for a night out with the girls or a special event top those lips off with a bold Lip! I chose this one from Tom Ford but MAC has one called Diva that fits just right ;).

Mixing prints and textures are a huge trend and fun for layering. Try pairing the quilted leather skirt with the houndstooth top, tie that flannel around your waist and slip into those booties and u have a super cute look.

There are so many ways to wear skinny distressed boyfriend jeans. My favorite would be with simple white tee, blazer and silver pumps! DIVINE! Winter whites, all black black everything , black and white is here to stay so take advantage of this perfect trend! What girl doesn't love to wear all black? Haaaa I do!

Stay sexy with the lingerie inspired clothing, I picked one by For the Love & Lemons. Slits are to be as high as they can go! I love this pick by Bless'ed are the Meek. They have the option in white as well. It's perfect for a special night out and it reminds me of that super hot dress Miranda Kerr wore to the Met Gala earlier this year!

Bold Lip ... check... sexy slit dress check!

As far as fall and winter goes these picks should have you covered. They are such easy pieces that you can pair with what already have. Give it ago and let me know :)

More J.Crew...