Dear Diary,

My whole life I have always counted every single pound, lost or gained. I can look back at pictures and tell you exactly how much I weighed at that moment. Recently I can safely say that I have been even more on top of things. I'm never without my scale and I probably weight myself way more than I should (at least 3x a day), it's like an obsession.

For the last year I have been beating myself up like crazy. Criticizing my body, comparing myself to others, Making fun of myself (which only opens the doors for others to do so too). I'm either on a complete health kick or I just don't give a fuck. What started out as "let me drop 3 lbs" is now weight gain of 9 lbs. Now I'm not saying that I'm overweight or fat. I'm barely 5'1 and 9 lbs  makes a difference on me but not enough for me to allow myself to think so negatively about my body and put myself down in front of others. I'm going to go ahead and play doctor and self diagnose with a slight body dysmorphia.

Which brings me to my next issue...Pinterest and Instragram sure hasn't helped and got me thinking...

I think all  the comparisons, negativity, high expectations,stupid jokes and stressing over it has been holding me back from my goals. I  have to stop being so hard on myself, criticizing and over thinking everything about my body. I have to do what works for me, what makes me happy and not what drives me insane or makes me obsessive.

I'm not those stick thin women and I will never be. I can also say with confidence I don't want to be them! I have my own body, my Brazilian curves which I happen to love and so does my husband. When I lost my baby weight Pinterest didnt exist. There was no secret 10 lb in 10 day diet. I used my own pictures as motivation. I ate in moderation, I exercised like a normal person. I never beat myself for indulging once in a while. Every time I had to get dressed to go somewhere I looked in the mirror and I was so proud of how far I had come. I never stressed and that was probably the real secret to my consistency.

My motivation board has been deleted...


BE YOUR OWN MOTIVATION LADIES

9 Months postpartum looking like a hot mama doing my Baywatch run! hahaha

The 3 F's

We're gearing up for the three major F's ...

Fall, Football & Fashion Week. 

If your anything like me football is one that does't excite me at all. One of the reasons being that it puts my husband out of commission on Sundays, Mondays and Thursdays and honestly that is just too much. Of course fantasy football just puts the cherry on top of it all.

But fall is by far my favorite season so I'm super excited for that...and Fashion week? Of course I have always followed it online and on E! News... lol but this year, thanks to an awesome friend I get to attend one of the fashion shows so I'm thrilled... no really... I'm jumping on the couch excited!

So let's focus on the task at hand. We must to stock up our closet with statement pieces that will easily update our wardrobe and make everything look FALL/WINTER 2013. Weather they are pieces to wear to girls night, a big event, fashion week or even to that football game. Because let's face it we must take time to participate at least once this season...for me it would the SUPERBOWL for OBVIOUS reasons ;)

Everything pointy!!! Tie up strappy pumps,metallic pumps (and of course metallic nails) super chic rocker boots are a must. Leopard will never go out of style, just make sure u choose one statement piece. Don't over do it. I love this simple clutch from gap and  it's so affordable. Statement necklaces are perfect to spice up any outfit. I chose a more simple on the tones yet still dramatic in size from J CREW and one with Emerald stones which is still one of the IT colors of this upcoming season. If your going for a night out with the girls or a special event top those lips off with a bold Lip! I chose this one from Tom Ford but MAC has one called Diva that fits just right ;).

Mixing prints and textures are a huge trend and fun for layering. Try pairing the quilted leather skirt with the houndstooth top, tie that flannel around your waist and slip into those booties and u have a super cute look.

There are so many ways to wear skinny distressed boyfriend jeans. My favorite would be with simple white tee, blazer and silver pumps! DIVINE! Winter whites, all black black everything , black and white is here to stay so take advantage of this perfect trend! What girl doesn't love to wear all black? Haaaa I do!

Stay sexy with the lingerie inspired clothing, I picked one by For the Love & Lemons. Slits are to be as high as they can go! I love this pick by Bless'ed are the Meek. They have the option in white as well. It's perfect for a special night out and it reminds me of that super hot dress Miranda Kerr wore to the Met Gala earlier this year!

Bold Lip ... check... sexy slit dress check!

As far as fall and winter goes these picks should have you covered. They are such easy pieces that you can pair with what already have. Give it ago and let me know :)

More J.Crew...

Beaded Corsets & Ms. Kim Kardashian

Ooo how things have changed...

In my "hoochie" years Summer was by far my favorite season, simply because I could wear less clothing. My closet for the most part consisted of mini skirts, halter tops and of course those Marciano bras that were fully beaded. I'm embarrassed to admit that at one point I owed way too many corsets because anything with a strap was way too conservative.

By the time hubby walked into my life I was much better but still needed some work and he made sure he would let me know. He was so annoying...and still is...but I owe it to him to covering up a little ;)

If you know me at all you know I love me some Kim Kardashian. This new mommy is a major fashion inspiration to me. Her style has definitely helped me (and hubby) find a happy medium to balance my sassy Brazilian personality with Connecticut living.

This made me want to share three easy outfits I will be rocking this fall for a night out by the future Mrs.West.

Baily 44 Turtle Mini Leather skirt    

 James Perse Classic Relaxed White Tee            

 Boutique 9 Booties

   

                        Aldo Klarr Wedge Boots                  

Stella & Jamie Sophia Pocket Dress

T By Alexander Wang

David Learner Seamed Vegan Leggings

BCBBGMAXAZRIA Combo Jacket

Chinese Laundry Corpetina Pumps

Let me know if you want to see more of these ;)

Beijinhos

 xoxo

It's UPDATE time & Yes I'm a total slacker!

I have been such a slacker with my blog posts! It has been almost 2 years since I last posted anything on this blog!  Wahhhhhhhhhh

There has been so much going and let's be real I have been lazy... REAL LAZY!

My YouTube videos you ask?  I've done a few but I'm not impressed so why should you guys be? lol  I'm interested to see what you guys think. There are so many channels in English... I think I need to show some support to my Brazilians out there, but then again I would love to do it in English because it comes more naturally to me ... is that normal?

Let's do a quick update on what have I been doing that has kept me so busy! haaaaa! You can now call me granite queen as I have regained my tittle as Sales Manager in my family's granite counter-top business. Hey I'm not living the life I've dreamed of but this is company will be mine someday , might as well embrace it. It's not easy sitting behind the desk as a makeup artist with a passion for all things beauty & fashion but I'm an adult so I shall act like one! :) Anyhow, to keep my creativity going I still freelance for weddings on weekends which is a nice break from the all the granite dust and spreadsheets.

On that note I have made the executive decision to blog regularly. It just makes sense! Bare with while this may be all over the place ...

Now, let's overflow this blog with the pictures in random order so you can catch up with the looks lately :)

Hubby & I on my 27th Bday ! Woahhhhh

In the beginning of the spring I decided I needed a change with my hair ;)

Night out with my ladies... Targey sandals, Skirt & Top from Zara 

Family Vacay to Punta Cana... Yep that's my baby who is now 2 1/2 oh my!

Messy Bun is always preferred on those days you haven't washed your hair

My Bff Nathalia... Her Bday :) 

Another one from Vacay! Alice & Olivia Body Suit, Nasty Gal high wasted shorts and Guiseppe Zanotti Sandals

My Little Man 

The Pedras !

Me and my gorgeous cousins at a wedding! I'm wearing a J crew scalloped dress! 

By the pool with the Mr. Acacia Swimear , Vanessa Mooney body chain, Ray Ban Sunnies & Sheila Fajil Hoops 

That's all I got for now... Keep posted! Im going to update you guys on my beauty favorites soon!

Beijinhos
Mrs. P

YouTube

Soooo, I finally decided to go ahead and start my youtube channel. There is nothing there yet I literally just signed up. I'm planning on doing some filming tomorrow so STAY TUNED and SUBSCRIBE :) 

P.S Para os meus segui dores Brasileiros eu vou fazer alguns posts em português! :)

TheGlamMommy  

I have a good excuse...

I have no computer...so I haven't been able to upload anything! Hubby is working on it so soon I will update you all everything and anything :)

Self doubt...

My father has always been a dreamer. He has had so many businesses in his mind and on practice I can barely keep track. Hot dogs stands by the beach, carpet cleaning, granite counter tops, real estate and the list goes on and on. He is never satisfied and always has a new idea or plan in mind. I worked for him in his granite business up until the end of my pregnancy last year. I told him I had to move on and pursue my own goals, have a career, make a living for myself. I was now a mother and soon to be wife I needed to go back to school and establish myself doing something I loved and could make a living off of it.

I'm now 25 years old, a mom , a wife and part time make up artist. Sure I love doing make up and my dream is...well it has been many things, a spa, a traveling makeup service, a beauty salon an actress... or maybe I would just be happy being a medical assistant because then I would just have a 9-5 job where I could enjoy my weekend with family and friends and most of it all... it would be EASY AND GUARANTEED. Nah...Truth is I would love having anything to do with the beauty industry. I'm starting school to get my aesthetics certificate in November. It sounds much easier just getting a job at a spa, but my mind goes so far beyond that. I look at all these make up on the go businesses thriving everywhere around me and while it amazes me it makes me question myself... Will I ever have that? Do I have enough time , power, enthusiasm and confidence? There is so much competition and for as much as being a part of these companies is an amazing opportunity could I really grow as a make up artist in another persons company? Would I make enough working as freelancer? It always sounds like it's either not enough work for the amount of employees or not enough money for all the hard work I would be putting in. There is always a catch. You have to pick and choose what it worth it to you and I guess when your starting you have to start at the bottom, learning and growing and usually under someone else. Especially when you have a baby.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll end up a dreamer like my father... talking about my dreams and never actually being about them. Starting things I could never finish. I can't actually even compare because my dad has always had the balls to start his dreams. Even if he has failed in the past. I just have a lot of mouth to talk. I was so confident 2 hours ago and now all I have is self doubt. The thought that so many girls my age have accomplished so much and I feel like I have nothing to speak for.It just seems like I've had so many dreams and never pursued any, and yes I take all the blame. I was lazy, not confident, and a punk.I know I've been getting recognition for my work at MAC and my freelancing gigs and my clientele is growing but I guess at the end of the day, everyone just wants their gold star huh?

Beijinhos!